Ok. I have never been one for keeping a journal, but I have decided that my up coming journey (more later) is not going to be easy. I have read several times that a journal may help. Not only as a area to vent, but also as a reminder of why I am doing this. So here I go...
After months of thinking about and investigating options I have decided to have weight loss surgery. This marks the beginning of a life changing journey for me and while I am very happy with my decision, I am also very nervous.
In case anyone is reading this, maybe you don't think this is a huge life changing thing, but I assure you it is. This is not just a decision to "take the easy road" as I have heard some people say. In fact, from what I have read this isn't easy at all. Granted, the surgery is supposed to make losing weight easier, there is a lot more to it then just eating less. From weeks of liquid diets, mandatory support meetings, 5 days of exercising, and a commitment to a life time of appointments with my surgeon as well as many other changes. Easy? I don't think so. Healthier, absolutely!
And really that is why I am doing this. Yes, I would like weigh less, fit in smaller clothing, look as good as my friends :), but in reality that is icing on the cake. I really want to be healthier, live longer, and be able to do more things. I don't want to take prescriptions for the rest of my life for things that I can avoid. I don't want to say no to going places with friends because I can't keep up. I don't want to say no or have anyone say no to me just because of my weight or health.
I want to be the me I see when I close my eyes. A woman who is strong, confident, and can do anything she sets her mind to. So here I go!!
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